Loss

Today is a difficult day in my household. The first of many to come. 

My blog today is not about my autistic son but about and for my daughter, in hope that one day she will have something written down to remind her.

It’s our princess’ 10th birthday and the first one without her dad.

3 months ago he passed, still very fresh to us all. Their dad no longer here. My life partner no longer here. Each day a new challenge. We are forced to face the reality that the man we all so dearly love is not with us here on this earth anymore.

I sit here crying, thinking about all the birthdays he will no longer share with her. All the important events and all the milestones in her life he wont be there for. The day she becomes a woman, her graduation, her matric ball, her first boyfriend, her marriage or her kids.😢

He loved his little girl, with all his heart and I pray that she will remember that for years to come. I pray that he imprinted in her true love. That she will remember that she deserves the best as her dad wanted for her. That she should be treated like a princess and one day a queen.

I hope in years to come she will remember the special moments they shared, those daddy daughter moments that mean so much to a young girl. That she will remember the time he took to spend with her, playing with her and entertaining her. Allowing her to be his puppet master. The made up bedtime stories he would tell her even on the nights he was utterly exhausted. The tea parties he attended especially for her. Their date nights. Their trips to the shops. That he always made time for her no matter what.

I pray she knows he was proud of her and will be proud of the woman she will become one day. 

I’d like to believe he is still watching over us and will always be. I pray I make him proud in raising his kids without him and continueing his legacy.

My dearest baby girl, always remember how much he loved you and that you meant the world to him. Always remember him as the amazing and good man he was. Remember that he did everything for you and will always want the best for you. I know it is hard not having him here but cherish your memories of him and that smile you brought to his face. The day you were born he cried, tears of joy to be blessed with you and he held you every chance he got.

Love him always as he loved you.
So happy birthday my princess.

From Mommy and Daddy up in Heaven